Why My Blog Is Titled Shadow Living?

From as far back as my memory will allow me to go;  I always felt like I was living “in someone else’s shadow.”  I wouldn’t understood the why behind it until years later.  But, it is connected to my childhood.  Growing up feeling invisible, unheard and dismissed had a tremendous effect on me.  Looking back, after years of God peeling back the layers and revealing facts vs. lies I realize it was no one’s fault.  Events, choices are made in life that leave ripple effects on a child’s heart.  BUT GOD!  He has a way of redeeming, restoring, resurrecting who He made us to be!  When we choose to let go of a life lived “in the shadow” of others and begin to live in the shadow of The Almighty!

Living in someone else’s shadow you tend to lose your own.  Or in my case have a really hard time finding it.  Remember how Peter Pan was always looking for his shadow?  He came into the nursery looking for it, thinking he had left it on one of those nights when Wendy would read to him. Wendy finds it and sews it onto his feet so he wouldn’t lose it again.  That’s what it feels like to not really know who you are.  To not have your own shadow or what we call identity.  You feel like something has been lost so you keep looking to find it.  I was looking for my “shadow” (my identity) but instead of sewing it on so I would not lose it again, for me; it was easier to just blend in and live in someone else’s shadow.

I grew up  in an environment where physical appearance or beauty was of utmost importance.  Now, beauty is not a bad thing.  But when that is the object of conversation or compliments were given only to the beautiful ones,  it can be a hard environment to grow up in.  Especially, if you don’t feel like one of the beautiful ones.  I was the little girl with gray teeth and freckles across my nose and a pixie haircut!  I was the quiet, shy kid who never looked people in the eye when they talked to me.  So living in the shadow of another was easy.  I was accustomed to it.  It had become my safe place.

In that type of atmosphere, it is easy to blend into the wallpaper, because there was always someone all too eager to take center stage! There were quite a few in my sphere of life who were willing to have all eyes & ears on them.  As a matter of fact, if they weren’t the center of attention believe you me, they would make sure they were seen and heard!  It was nauseating and exhausting.   I was definitely not one of those!  I just tried to stay out of the way.  So at an early age I learned to live in the shadows.   After many years of searching, seeking and self medicating something inside of me  woke up!

Through My Abba’s help in his word, prayer, pain & counseling I have been set free to step out of a life lived in another person’s  “shadow” and am learning how to live abundantly in the Shadow of The Almighty!

I am sincerely hoping there are others out there in blogosphere world who can relate to my experience.  My heart is to share my story of restoration, redemption & renewal so others can find their true identity & freedom in knowing who they are and why they were created.  Purpose brings peace & power.  I have found that shadow living can be a wonderful way of life but the key is choosing to live in the right shadow.   Hoping to hear from a few of you soon.

Choosing to live in the shadow of the Almighty,
Renee
Psalm 91:1-2 Shadow Living

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The madness!

We look to our government leaders.
We look to our law makers.
We scream for more gun control.
We yell for more mental health agencies. More drugs! (Not saying any of that is wrong)

God help us!

We blame the gaming industry.

We blame the movie & music industries.

But…

Do we ever look within as a nation?
Do we look in the mirror?
Do we check our hearts?
Do we care?
Do I care?

Do we look up in repentance & brokenness over our sin as a nation?

God help us!

Such tragedy!

So heartbreaking!

Where are those souls now?

Broken, motherless & Fatherless homes.

Friendless, broken, unloved, unheard, unseen kids.

Children left to themselves.

The forgotten ones.

The abandoned.

The emotionally, mentally & physically abused.

The neglected ones.

The down right evil of it all.

God help us!

These tragedies are the horrible symptoms of a nation gone mad!

Of a people saying, “no thanks God we will do it our way.
Get out of our schools, finances, relationships & homes!
Get out of our places of idol worship. Thanks anyway. We got this!

When the family unit is destroyed. When we turn away from our maker. When we go after the things that bring us pleasure at the expense of our marriages, our children’s best interest and turn away from God… This is the result.

God help us!

Anger & pain unleashed in an evil act through the end of a gun. Innocent lives taken. Lives & minds of the perpetrators stolen by the wicked one!

The puppet master is the EVIL one! The most broken, damaged, mentally ill & emotionally unstable because of reasons stated above are his puppets!

God help us!

Trump doesn’t have the answers.
The Right doesn’t have the answers.
The Left doesn’t have the answers.

God help us! You are the answer!

2 Chronicles 7:14 – when my people humble themselves—the ones who are called by my name—and pray, seek me, and turn away from their evil practices, I myself will listen from heaven, I will pardon their sins, and I will restore their land.

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Jesus-Loving Mommas

To the Jesus-loving Momma’s out there whose hearts are aching & breaking 💔 over the babies we once held in our arms, prayed over & sang songs over.   To those mommas who loved their toddlers well, played with, laughed with, taught how to do, well…everything!  to those Mommas who prayed for their teenagers, loved them well through those tough years, taught them responsibility, helped to cultivate their gifts & talents.   

The ache & hurt we feel for the kids God blessed our homes with…those kids we modeled a life of following after God….even though imperfectly.  

Those precious souls we taught in word, action of God’s truths – prayed for Day & night.  Only to watch them walk away from that very truth and dive head long into a culture that is lying to them.  Telling them anything goes!  

Let’s make a pact!  

To not give up.  Ok? 

God sees our aching hearts Mommas! 

God hears our prayers in the night! 

God loves us! 

God loves them! 

God is ABLE! 

God is good!  

When everything we see, hear and feel tells us they are long gone…

The Holy Spirit whispers to our breaking hearts “don’t quit, don’t give up! Stay in the fight.  Their very souls depend on it!” 

Jesus-loving Momma’s we’ve gotta stay at our post of prayer!  

Don’t you dare give in to doubts, to the lies of the enemy, to the shouts of this world!  

Don’t listen to the faithless whispers & voices that surround you!  

Keep praying.  

Keep believing.  

Keep seeking, asking & knocking!  

Don’t quit!  

Don’t give in!

Don’t give up!  

The battle for their hearts, minds & souls depends on it!  

Prayer:  Dear Daddy-God, help us to love well, live a life that points to You.  Teach us to pray! 

Mostly though…Father, help your “Jesus-loving Mommas” to Trust that your love is more than enough!  That your arm is longer, your reach is farther!  Help us to Trust Your plan to rescue & redeem our prodigals from the roads they are on.  

We know You are able!  

We know & believe in Your power!  

Do it again Lord, do it again! 

In the mighty name of Jesus Christ! 

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Exposing Scars…

When we expose our scars through writing there are risks involved.   We risk being misunderstood and misinterpreted.  Revealing our healing story makes us vulnerable to critics, skeptics, and those who just don’t get it.   That’s ok!  There are others who need to hear our story.  Someone out there needs to understand that they are not alone.

So, I write!  Even though no one knows my name. Well, there is One who knows my name!  Even though I don’t have a platform (working on that).   I write!   I heard the call to write my story for His glory!  Deep down I know there are others out there like me, who have stood in the shadow of someone or something else their entire life.  We were never meant to live this life in anyone else’s shadow.  We were created to dwell in the shelter of the Most High and stand in the shadow of the Almighty!

If sharing my story helps one person turn to Jesus Christ.  If exposing my scars leads one person on a journey of healing in the shadow of His Wings; It will be worth it all!  There are many that live in the “shadow” of others who suffer with depression, anxiety, doubt & fear.  It is for those who will get it that I write.

I am trusting My Abba to use my story for His glory!

Psalm 91:1-2

Renee

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God’s Invitation To All… “Come in and know me better man”

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To the Hagars of The World

My heart has this aching pain for those on the fringes!

The left-out
The forgotten
The left behind
The unpopular ones
The mis-fits
The misunderstood

The ones who feel like outcasts.

Take comfort & consider today my friends…God is the God who SEES You! El Roi’ is His name. He sees your pain, your brokenness, your loneliness. He sees and He can heal the pain. He can repair the broken pieces of your heart. He can give you the friends you need. He can make you the friend someone else needs. He also desires to be your closest friend. He is the one who promises to…”never leave you or forsake you”

He desires to lavish His holy love on you! His love is extravagant! You are loved! You are wanted! You are His!

Guess what else?  He not only loves you but, He also likes you!

Your quirky personality
Your uniqueness
Your awkwardness
All of you! He likes you!

While others may leave you out,  walk away, look right  past you.

When life makes you feel over-looked, unnoticed, forgotten or invisible…

Your heavenly Father sees you!

He includes you!
He notices you!
He remembers you!
He sees you!

His arms are open wide & he has invited you into a magnificent relationship through His One & Only Begotten Son Jesus Christ.

You are valuable to the King of the world!

You are not alone.

You are important!

In the Shadow of the Almighty,

Renee

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The Faith of Abraham

Romans 4:16-21 – Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham’s offspring—not only to those who are of the law but also to those who have the faith of Abraham. He is the father of us all. 17 As it is written: “I have made you a father of many nations.” 17 He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls into being things that were not as though they were.  18 Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, “So shall your offspring be.” 19 Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah’s womb was also dead.  20 Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God,  21 being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.

This morning as I was reading through Romans 4, the passage above leapt off the written page and came alive in my heart!  The word is absolutely alive and active (Heb. 4:12).  If you know his journey with God; you see Abraham’s faith was not in his obedience to God.  Although, that was important.  His faith was not even in the promise! Albeit he knew God would bring it to pass.

Abraham’s faith was in “the God who gives life to the dead and calls into being things that were not as though they were.”   

WOW!   You see, he was 100 years old and he knew his body was as good as dead.  Sara was old too, her womb was dead!  DEAD!  No possibility for life to form in a dead womb!  It’s impossible!

But, isn’t that what our God does?

The impossible!

 He takes what seems utterly ridiculous and makes it an absolute reality!

 I really think it gives God great joy to blow His kids minds!  The word says, “Abraham believed without weakening in his faith.  He did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God!”

But y’all know when Issac was born from a womb that should have been dead; Abraham and Sarah were completely blown away! 

These incredible truths made me do some soul-searching.    The Holy Spirit began activating the word in my heart with these questions: 

1.  Do I have the faith of Abraham?

2. Is my faith in the promises of God or in the Promise Keeper?

3. Do I believe like my father Abraham in the God who not only gives life to the dead        but on top of that… calls into being things that are not as though they are?

4. Am  I fully persuaded that God has the power to do what He has promised me?

SO, can I ask you a few questions to give you something to ponder and mull over this week?  

What things in your life are as good as dead?   Or maybe are definitely dead.
Maybe there are dead relationships and your heart is broken.
A dead marriage? Financial hardship? Your health?
Maybe a lost loved one who is dead in trespasses and sins?
Could it be a dead God-given dream or vision for your life?

I have some things in my life that appear as good as dead.  Some truly break my heart. But you know what they say, “Things aren’t always what they seem.”

So let’s agree to ask The Lord Almighty to forgive us for our unbelief and let’s be honest we all have times of unbelief.

Repent & Believe!

We love and serve a God who was true to His promise to Abraham and Sarah!

 He raised Jesus Christ from the DEAD!

A God who transferred us from darkness to light.

Who has spoken promises to us through His Word!

Let’s believe BIG in the GOD of the Promise!  Let’s take our “dead” things to His throne room and lay them down at His beautiful feet.  Knowing He can and will call those things in our lives that are dead to life!

Let’s not waver in our belief regarding His promises but let the waiting strengthen our  faith so we too can give God glory!

 Let’s be fully persuaded that God will do what He says He will do!  He will call things that are not as though they are!

Let’s ask God to give us the faith of Abraham!

 

 

 

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